Indifference: Never Say Never
The First Half
by Black Beyond
I'm twenty years old. My birthday is June 30. I can
tell you that. Lots of people have that birthday. Lots of people are that
If only I could be one of those 'lots of people'.
I don't know what happened. I'm hiding from myself,
in a country that I call my own, but has turned against me in my eyes,
although no ones knows it. Not even the country.
Or maybe not. Maybe I'm just being paranoid.
All because I saved someone's life.
It wasn't my fault. I saw her.
And I saw it.
My destiny tells me one thing.
That I am to fight.
So, I fought it. And I saved her.
It's not my fault that woman didn't want to be saved.
It's not my fault that she tried to kill me.
She did a pretty good job of it. With a blade I
didn't know she had. She was very experienced with that blade. If I'd lost
any more blood from those cuts, I would have died. One more drop, I'm sure.
But I lived.
But she didn't. I heard later she committed sucide.
I'm not going to tell you her name. It's not that important. Like I said,
I didn't even know her.
Just some stranger.
Anyway, I suppose you can keep my secret. My name
is Tsukino Usagi. I was born in Tokyo, Japan, to Tsukino Kenji and Ikuko.
I have a little brother: Tsukino Shingo.
None of them know what happened. To them, I just
feel on some barb-wire.
To my closest friends, I was recklessly fighting
a dangerous monster-- a youma.
To my Mamoru, I was being the little ditzy girl
If only they knew.
My daughter, she knows. Because she was there beside
me. My savior. The one who was able to stop the blood in time.
She's not really my daughter, yet. She's from a
time in the future where I rule as the Neo-Queen Serenity.
She knows everything about me.
She knows I'm really a super-genius.
She knows I'm not who I look.
She knows me.
I love her for that. She never questions who I am
or what I do. I have no secrets from her.
She is Sailor Moon.
I am Eternal Sailor Moon.
It's really ironic how fate can love you one minute
and throw a bullet at you the next.
I've got scars. But thankfully, with Mamoru's absolute
vows of chasity until we're married, I'm able to keep most of them hidden.
Hardly any of them are on the lower part of my arms.
I'm able to wear short sleeves. And for those on my face and legs, I use
make up. it's the putty kind, made to cover up scars. It works wonders,
but I can't wear a bathing suit.
That's why I'm always 'sick' or 'busy' when we all
get together to go swimming. The putty washes off with water.
But Chibi-usa insisted I have no scars when I'm
Queen. Because I wear bikinis all the time and she has never seen any.
I've figured that one out. Magic. I suppose, if
I was just a bit more powerful, I could do it.
But I'm not that strong....
[Excerpt of "Indifference", by Black Beyond.]